Mistress Monologues - Nina's Known Universe Blog

What was I thinking? True, it was always supposed to just be emotional ravings to release pressure and stress, and yet, as always, I had hopes that I would say the right thing or make the right point, causing light bulbs to go off all across the country.

That is never going to happen. People will agree or disagree as they always have. No one will ever change their point of view for that implies they were once wrong...or misguided. And yet I persevere.

Reality is a cruel Mistress. She stands back laughing while well meaning citizens cheer that the Government wants to provide 'free' healthcare...excuse me, 'affordable' healthcare for all while ignoring the fact that the Government is not a self-sustaining entity. It isn't even the care they are providing, it is insurance to pay for care that may or may not be needed.

Americans who work pay taxes. Tax dollars fund all of these programs as well as the salaries of all the politicians who push for them...programs largely utilized by Americans who don't work or are not working right now or who lack the education or motivation for a better paying job.

If our Government wants us to be charitable, let us pick the charity and make all donations to the benefit of another fully deductible on our tax return. This includes supporting family members, our pets and the funds we pay to support school programs.

Reality also rolls on the floor when rural Conservatives cry for the good old days, forgetting that until 911 they all thought Bush Jr was an idiot that only got elected because of his daddy; always pointing out that he was no George Sr.

Short term memory loss is typical in politics. Whomever is in command today is to blame for it all. They also forget that while Bush cut taxes to amazing lows, he followed up by spending billions on a war that would normally be funded by tax dollars. Those tax cuts should have been reversed once the war began but he didn't want to upset his party.

Ironically many of these die hard right wingers now bitching about Obama's spending are currently enjoying benefits that the Democrats pushed into existence. Benefits they need because the company they worked for was Republican so naturally they laid everyone off so the managers could still get their summer bonuses.

All the while neither side takes any blame for anything always blaming the other guy. Bailout money for corrupt financial institutions was put into effect at the tail end of Bush's term, subsidies for healthcare this year is Obama's baby. SSDD.

Don't cry to me about this party or that one. Don't cry to me about this president or that one. THEY ARE ALL THE SAME. If you funded their election you will get your way at the expense of everyone else. No matter who is in power – someone is going to get screwed. Hello? Is this on?

THERE IS NO DIFFERENCE. If you talk down this admin you will have 1000 conservatives singing your praises ignoring their own parties contribution to the problem. If you talk down the last admin you will have 1000 liberals cheering you on, also denying that their party is doing anything adverse currently.

Sure, helping big business helps the economy in theory. The theory being that they will use their extra money to make more jobs...only they don't...they buy cars and go on vacations that you and I will never afford. If it was really their money it would be fine.

But don't use my tax dollars to bail them out thinking they will reimburse all those drained IRA's (which is not the taxpayers responsibility either) when the reality is that they need that bailout money to pay bonuses already earned by their employees.

After 6 years working for an investment adviser, I can tell you that no one ever read their contracts or prospectuses, and no matter how many times we told them, INVESTMENTS ARE NOT GUARANTEED, they would still whine at every dip in the market. Investing in any financial product not guaranteed by the FDIC comes with RISK.

Not only that, but an investment with 1 million shares that was worth $1 million dollars but is now only worth $500k still has 1 million shares. If investors sit on those shares, eventually the value will come back – assuming it was a mutual fund and they are willing to wait at least 5 years maybe 10. It's called speculation for a reason.

And in theory, those who have been blessed with success should want to help those less fortunate, but who wants to be forced to do that? Especially when those being forced to help are feeling like the charity should be coming their way not the other way around.

Like the time I didn't have the extra money for some charity I had donated to the year before. The callers attitude that I was some how beholden to donate again annoyed me. I gently informed them that due to my financial situation I should be on their list of needy and to feel free to send us a food basket in lieu of the funds we donated the year before which we now needed back.

They never called me again.

Additionally, I have recently read the US Constitution in full, it isn't as long as you might think. And while it does have a lot of vague language about powers of Government that can easily be 'interpreted' to allow them to do anything they want with congressional support, it does not say that healthcare, insurance, or even having a retirement fund is a guaranteed right to us citizens.

In fact it is so vague in regard to the specifics of the Commerce Clause, the one that allows them to require we have car insurance, that the mandate attached to the new healthcare bill will likely be over ruled at the state level as being outside the scope of our Federal Governments powers. So why bother?

What it comes down to is this; The Federal Government is supposed handle the Military which protects our country from outside influence along with Foreign Policy, Diplomacy, Trade, etc. They are supposed to regulate the industries that have the potential to cheat all of us, but they are not supposed to manage those industries.

Federal Tax Dollars should not be spent on any program that is not directly related to the good of this nation as an entity. State funds are for the management of non private services, like Fire, Police, Teachers, EMS, Roads and other items which benefit the whole state thus being worthy of tax dollar investment.

Mandatory insurance will not guarantee any one will be healthier or that they will not spread disease, unlike car insurance, where reckless driving with out insurance is actually a threat to another life and livelihood.

No...if they really want to guarantee a healthy country the solution is so simple and far less expensive than the $894 billion dollars this new healthcare bill is going to cost us. Instead of this stupid plan, take a tiny bit of that money and use it to vaccinate the entire country from birth for FREE along with all the annual flu shots.

Inoculations are supposed to be the best prevention after all. If they truly want anyone to believe it is for the good of the entire country, that they want to prevent a pandemic, then they shouldn't charge for the cure.

As for everyone else, I am sorry, but America is, in fact, a Capitalist nation. While I personally would love to live in an Utopian Society based on brotherhood, pitching in, neighbors caring for neighbors, and doctors healing just for the pleasure of saving lives, that is not going to happen any time soon.

There are too many folks taking advantage and too many that just don't care either way.

Medicine is a business. Yes, the prices are too high for basic care as far as I am concerned. $700 for a band aid without stitches in the ER is outrageous, and I never would have bothered had I known the cost up front.

That is issue one, non disclosure of prices until the bill comes. Non itemized bills. General ER my ass. But business is business. Supply and Demand.

Not to mention the fact that hospitals and doctors already offer financial aide to the uninsured (which also explains the $700 bandaid) for which they are compensated for by the Federal Government in the way of tax write offs.

And don't forget the millions if not billions of dollars that are collected in the way of tobacco tax and alcohol tax, funds supposedly dedicated to paying for tobacco and alcohol related illnesses. How do this dollars factor into this new plan? Will universal health care eliminate those taxes? NOT

The next step, after the vaccines are done, is that we need to allow Americans to order medicines online from any source they choose. Let the individual decide if FDA approval is worth the extra $400 on an Rx. This will never happen mind you...there is way too much cash to be made by big pharmeceutical companies to ever allow that.

Beyond all these things, people simply have to stop wanting it both ways. We want to have the best doctors, the best research, the best drugs and the best service but dammit we don't want to pay for it...yet we do via our taxes every single day with more cost yet to come.

We want to have a home business and make lots of money on our own services, crying that we have to pay any taxes on that income, but that doctor who spent 12 years in school so he could carve the cancer out of your body without nicking a lung is not worth his fee.

If our Government, both Federal and State, truly wanted to save this country money, wanted to trim the fat and wanted to put tax dollars back in the pockets of working Americans, they would eliminate 50% of their personnel. All those committees being paid to find ways to save money or to implement the money already spent.

Lastly – I imagine a Government ultimately ran by volunteers. Someone not getting paid for their effort has nothing to gain by screwing us. Imagine all those politicians having day jobs? No time for lobbying, no time for deal making, they work, pay taxes, and feel the sting of coupon day at the local market...just like the rest of us.

Our military would be comprised of those volunteer citizens in favor of fighting, they can even bring their own guns and ammo. Think of the savings! Remember volunteer means unpaid.

Meanwhile those in favor of giving more than receiving can take to the streets as good neighbors, painting, sweeping, beautifying, serving, caring etc. They can bring their own supplies and their own gloves, goggles and masks...and of course their very own hard earned dollars. Think of that savings!!

Like the old saying goes...”If you want something done right...or at all...you should probably get off your ass and do it yourself.”

As summer heat makes way for autumn rain, a blanket of baby greenery emerges from the once dusty pasture. Festive hearts prepare for All Hallows Eve while cooler nocternal temperatures inflame majestic Wapiti with a burning lust. The wind carries their scent to mighty hunters in search of glory...and meat.

Time to enjoy the final weeks of feeding in slippers, watering in pajamas. Soon partly cloudy will become partly sunny and then ultimately...rain. Rain, rain and more rain. Wind. Mud. Stack the pantry with can goods. Load the freezer with meat, bread and packaged food. Fill the porch with firewood and invest in a good 5000 watt or greater home generator. It is better to have a thing and not need that thing, than to need that thing and not have it.

Out here in BoonieVille USA there are lots of power lines crossing large regions of mainly timber land...trees that grow and grow until they are harvested. When the wind blows real hard or really wet snow comes down a foot at a time, these gangly untrimmed trees like to snap off and take power lines with them.

Other signs of fall include high school football games, new shows on prime time television, setting our clocks back an hour and mud. Oh I said that already. Well it bears mentioning again.

Envision the sight of your Beloved Empress, trogging across the soggy pasture, rubber boots slurping and slopping along, dressed like the Michelin Man in her over-sized black snow mobile suit. No, we don't have snow mobiles. We used to ski, and I just like to be warm. This thing is like a -10 degree sleeping bag that has arms, legs and a hood.

Autumn also prepares us for winter by gradually adjusting ambient temperatures, much cooler at night but still with the periodic sunny 75 degree day. Slowly our bodies adjust. Finding it difficult to warm the house "just a little" with only the wood stove for heat; we usually wait until its good and cold before torching off the burn box. Much to the dismay of two very spoiled, very cold blooded dogs who shiver below 80. Of course the giant water dog chooses to go outside when we warm up the house...poor baby can't stand the heat.

Nothing is ever all bad. This time of year, as the days grow darker earlier and earlier, lovers find they have more time for cuddling by a warm fire, with a boring DVD playing and their favorite drinks in hand. Boring DVD? Hmmm...whatever shall they do to amuse themselves?

Thank You For Reading!! ~99

There were many factors which contributed to my original success, primarily; the basic dietary principals of the Glycemic Index, regular strenuous exercise and participation on a forum that coupled support with camaraderie and accountability.

My personal mantra became: Moderation Not Deprivation.

Meanwhile, the main cause of regaining the weight has simply been lack of exercise. My diet hasn't been as good as it should be either and exercise would have at least kept both the calories and the cravings in check.

Imagine if your car absorbed the extra gas or oil you put in it when you didn't drive it for a while. Your trunk would get huge.

It should not shock anyone that exercise is the key to weight loss. Burning more than you take in and creating a balance when you finally reach your goals.

Proper balanced diet makes it so much easier. Just as your car won't run without gas...don't starve your self. And you have to treat yourself as well, why bother otherwise?

It doesn't matter why I stopped exercising. I am not here to make excuses and I am not looking for sympathy because we have all been there and done that.

What matters is that I am ready to retake control again. That is all any of us can do. No matter how many times we step back we must keep pressing forward.

I know how to do it, I have already done all the research, experienced the results first hand and will help anyone who asks. Helping others will also motivate me to practice what I preach.

To learn exactly what I did and didn't do to lose all that weight, please join me in my quest to take back control, to be healthy and happy while still basically eating like a 'normal person'.

Most importantly, you must want to lose weight for your health even more than for your body shape. If you feel fine at whatever size you are then be happy!

Sexy is an attitude not a reflection. No one should feel obligated to trim up if they are comfortable as they are. Clothes come in all sizes for a reason. Find something flattering and work it baby!

If it were not for the bad knees, the sore back, the heartburn and the winded feeling I get going up a hill, I would be more than happy to hold here, its a bit heavier than I like but I have clothes that fit well enough to get my groove on.

No, I am doing this because I felt so awesome then, I cannot even describe the level of self-esteem I felt. Not just from my reflection, though that was a very nice bonus, the real benefit was that I was at last fit!

I hoisted my own butt up on a horse with my very own strength for the very first time ever in my chubby life because I no longer weighed more than I could oomph! It was as if I were weightless, like some unseen force lifted me gracefully upon the fair steed.

As I mentioned, the first time around I joined a forum for people trying to lose weight and that was very helpful. Posting my triumphs, my goals and even my set-backs was very liberating.

The accountability kept me on track and focused. I would like to do that again but this time with my own forum to pass on what I have learned and to help others feel as good as I plan to feel again.

Who's with me?

Thank You For Reading!! ~99